Fight Back

Another random thing about me: I have chronic back pain. I’m trying to make appointments to figure out why this is happening and I’m sure I’ll be documenting that along the way.

I was diagnosed with scoliosis about eleven years ago and the pain I had always surrounded the curved portion of my upper back. It felt like muscle cramps and the pain was present when I did a lot of physical activity or slept funny.

But now, the pain has moved down to my lower back. And it’s worse than I ever felt over this last decade. I’m not sure why the area has changed or why the pain has intensified this much. Is it because I sit too much? I try to get up and move around as much as possible, I go to the gym, I do stretches. It is so frustrating that I can’t figure out the reason myself.

If I walk around too much, it is honestly torture. When I was on vacation last week, I couldn’t even make it to the beach. That was so upsetting. One of my favorite places and my body couldn’t function properly to get me there.

I feel like this is such a dark post. I’m trying my best not to get too disappointed or lose all hope before I even get to my doctor appointments. But it’s hard to stay positive when I want to go out and do things but it causes so much pain. Has anyone dealt with severe, chronic pain or have any suggestions for some temporary relief?